i am a bore: May 2006

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i have a thing for white roses now. yayness!!! (like how fahm always puts it)

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i was sittin in front of my fuji baby in klass, fingers on the keyboard and blankly staring into space when it suddenly dawned on me how many people i've pushed away in my life. i think i'm a puki. seriously.

alright. ut after skool. wish me luck babies.

ta.

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i'm in skool today! a sentence i've not said in a long long LONG time. yay. i'm determined to get through this week without skippin =)

oh, oh have you ever noticed how rp students love their laptops so much? they'd rather let something happen to them than their laptops. take juls for example. this is so hilarious. i remember we were in the cinema and it was so dark and the movie had already started. now, the cinema is freakin old and cramped, and since juls was the one findin our seats, she was in front. she then tripped over i'm not sure what, and the thing is, when people trip, their arms will flail just like a drowning chicken, but not her. instead, she clutched her laptop, and went down with it, making sure nothing happened to it. aiyah, i don't know how to put it, but it really looked so hilarious. we couldn't stop laughin for a full ten minutes. and until now, she's bringing her laptop to skool in a 6kg fully padded bag-that-looks-like-a-briefcase. imagine. instead of puttin your hands out front to break your fall, you'd rather injure yourself and make sure nothing happens to that $2000 pile of plastic. and trust me, i believe ALL rp students would do the same as juls.

it seems that things happen when you least expect it to. i don't want to get anything back. nope. i'm not going to ask for trouble.

alright, i'm off to study now. i can't afford to screw up my last three uts.

oh, and have you heard the song 'unfaithful'? it just gives me the goosebumps.

alright, bye mankind.

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i'm left with pretty much two things to settle and i'm done =) it's not going to be easy though. it's hard to pick yourself up after fallin down like a million times. i feel great today, which is such an amazing contrast as compared to yesterday. the sleepless nights don't seem to go away though. which is killin me by the way. it just goes to show he still haunts my every thought. which is so very wrong. they say dreams are the opposite of reality. i'm not so sure about that. but one thing's for sure- it definitely brings across my fears very well. so much so it feels so real. which is NOT chilly.

alright enough about that.

i'm meetin the boy soon.

bye sunshines.

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changed blogskin again. i'm a perfectionist, what can i say?

i feel so sick now. guess i'm gonna head back to my room and hide away in a corner and wither slowly all by my lonesome self. bye world.

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i skipped skool again today. for the record, i've never skipped skool four days in a row. i feel really awful now. this is terrible. no, beyond terrible. it's HORRIBLE, i tell you.

i can't think about it, and yet i can't NOT think about it. so much's happened over these past few days, i'm not even sure how i should react. and you not bein able to give me your word doesn't help much, really. sometimes i'd just wish i could be sure of at least ONE thing in my life. screw karma.

and oh ya, i've changed blogskin. credits to juls, damien, janice, yayer and nik for posing.

cheers.

i'm out.

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assumin we manage to talk ourselves into goin to skool tmr, we would have attended skool only two days this week. which is bad. shawn walked past our table today and said that he would buy us lunch if anything frm that stack of books went into our heads.

gee, how motivating.

i'm apprehensive. bothered. troubled. vexed, in fact. he had the same dream before she left. the outcome wasn't pretty, really.